Collide’s New Cover & Updates on Consumed

Collide has a new look!

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Which is pretty exciting, don’t you think? I’m excited about it.

Now for you new-comers…a little blurb on Collide (while we are on the topic):

COLLIDE is a romantic suspense novel about a 17-year-old girl named Harlow Jones. Harlow has a troubled past, and a questionable future. Surrounded by death, tragedy, and intrigue, she is forced to mature long before her time. Plagued by anxiety and depression, she hides her inner turmoil with spite and sarcasm. Her thick skin is impenetrable. That is…until she becomes involved with her grade 12 English teacher

Available on Kindle and Kobo.

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As for Consumed….I recently shared the release news on my Facebook page (which is why you should go like that page. I update it before my blog – you’ll get the latest news and what not there).

I am looking for people who want to help with the cover reveal. If you like reviewing books and have a blog (or Facebook page) that you can use to share some teasers and reviews Consumed, sign up!

The cover reveal will be November 21st and materials will be distributed November 10th. The release date is December 1st.

I am so excited and can’t wait to share it with you all!

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Consumed

Thanks to my extremely talented friend Byron, I now have a synopsis of Consumed to share with you all!

CONSUMED by J.C. Hannigan

He’s tall, dark, and deliciously handsome. Not exactly what Harlow is looking for. Her heart’s still stuck on Iain Bentley.  But it’s been a painful struggle since she last saw him.  Two years of silence and wondering; of desperate sleepless longing.  And Jax Walker is a hard man to resist.  Just as she’s prepared to open herself to new love, Harlow’s whole world is thrown into a painful spiral.

And also, this little teaser…

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I spent all of today editing and revising, and I still have a lot more to do but I can’t help but share little bits and pieces of this exciting progress. I kind of feel like I know what I’m doing, so it’s a little more exciting. There’s less stress, I’m enjoying it more.

I have already ordered the new cover, and hopefully I will have it in time for my intended release in early December (I’ll know more in a couple weeks). In the mean time, my short term goal is to get Consumed edited, revised and formatted  by October 31st, so that the only thing I’ll be waiting on is the cover.

That’ll free up November for NaNoWriMo…and possibly a third novel…

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Finally

Remember not that long ago, when I complained about writer’s block and how I hadn’t been able to make any progress with the sequel to Collide?

Well. For the last three days, I’ve been on an intense writing binge, breaking only to tend to the basic needs of myself, my children, and the dogs. (Don’t worry, Matt was also around making sure nobody suffered from neglect).

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I’ve written 18286 words in the last three days, and today…I officially finished the novel…well, the first draft anyway.

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Needless to say, I am exhausted. The last few days were intense and grueling, but I now have the first draft completed…and I can breath easier.

The novel is far from finished, though. It still needs to be revised, edited, and formatted. I still need to do the whole cover design thing, and come up with a marketing plan once I figure out when the release date will be.

But, I’m telling my brain to stop talking for a bit. I’m really happy with the first draft, I’m really excited to share it with everyone, but if I learned anything at all the first time, it’s that trying to rush things isn’t good. This time around, I’ll have a better game plan and schedule laid out.

The first draft is finished, and the rest will fall into place. Now, I’m going to bury my face in a pillow and eat a bunch of chocolate whilst sobbing tears of sweet relief. I did it! I finished the novel!

Guys, I even named the novel. It is no longer untitled. I will reveal the name of the novel when I have time to write up a fancy synopsis…which, well. Shit.

That’ll be fun.

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Ryan Gosling gets it.

Anyways, the point is I did it. Go me!

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I Have a Drinking Problem. Or a Social Problem. Or Both…

Back in the day, my recreational sport of preference was drinking my face off and partying until I literally banged my face off the floor. I hit a phase, shortly after I dropped out of college, that was literally sleep all day, party all night. I had social anxiety back then too, but I tried to numb it all with booze (and I was more successful at it than I am now. Huzzah!)

It wasn’t a good time of my life. I wasn’t as bad as some people, but I also wasn’t smart about it. I hung out with other people who were in a similar phase of drinking and having fun.

After having kids, my priorities changed completely. I no longer was that girl that drank all the time. I sort of completely submerged myself into the land of parenting. I still had the occasional glass of wine after a rough day, but I didn’t drink like I used to.

My social anxiety seems to have gotten worse and worse with every year that passes. My ability to cope with things in social functions, and to roll with the punches worsens. Almost alarmingly so.

When I was younger, I didn’t get a belly full of twisted nerves at the prospect of going to a party. I was okay, because my friends would be there and they would have my back. But times changed, and I was stuck in self-inflicted isolation for so long…I became paranoid of everyone’s intentions with me. Each not-so-stellar experience I had at a party solidified my anxieties about dealing with other people in that kind of setting.

The few times I’ve ventured out to a party, I went in with the mindset of get so drunk I can’t even hear myself think…because if I heard myself think, I would hear the unpleasant analyzing of every encounter. In an attempt to calm my anxiety, I would drink too much too soon. I used alcohol as a buffer, a shield from my anxieties. 

I’m an emotional person, and emotional people do not make good drunk people. They make emotional drunk people, which is ten thousand times worse than being just an emotional person. 

I also get sloppy. Alcohol is wonderful in that it dulls the pain receptors and makes pain a little more bearable. Naturally, it dulls the control you have over your body as well. Thus making me klutzier and, well, sloppy. I limp more. I slosh my drink because even when I’m not drunk, I do not have the same control over my limbs as someone else does. It’s a thousand times more obvious when I’ve been drinking.

My attempts to calm my social anxiety with alcohol have always back-fired. Plus, it exhausts me. Drinking, being out, socializing when the anxiety is overwhelmingly powerful, being in pain (even if I can’t feel it as much in that moment)…all that is exhausting. I get insecure, because I’m not the hot drunk girl, I’m the sloppy drunk girl. I don’t want to be the sloppy drunk girl…

The new reality of party going, for me, is always a belly full of nerves, anxiety through the rough followed by a sloppy drunk me, calling it quits early because I just can’t do the all night party scene…even when sloshed straight into “white girl wasted” territory.

There is a party coming up that I was looking forward to. My favourite holiday is Halloween, and naturally…costume parties are the best. But I’ve been thinking a lot lately about it…about who I am when I’m drinking, when I’m in that environment…and I don’t like that person at all.

I have a drinking problem even though I’m actually not at all dependent on alcohol. I don’t need it and I don’t regularly drink it, but to use it as a social buffer makes it a problem. When you find yourself knocking them back to quiet the nerves, clutching the glass of some alcoholic beverage like a lifeline, then it may very well be a problem. Drinking in social situations where my anxiety is sky-rocketing is still not something I should do. 

So, I’ve decided that I am going to willingly miss out on the upcoming Halloween party…or at least, go and not partake in any of the drinking and still leave early because I will undoubtedly be a hot mess because of all the anxiety.

It’s not that I want to hide behind my anxieties and avoid doing anything that makes me uncomfortable, oh hell no. I honestly do a lot of things that make me feel extremely uncomfortable. Like taking Archer to playgroups, or taking the kids to town events. I guess I just “tap out” when it comes to things I can avoid. I know that I can’t avoid doing things that the kids would enjoy, but when it comes to a “grown up” party where the kids’ happiness and entertainment is not at stake…well. The cons outweigh the pros. I can only think of one pro…and that’s seeing people that I haven’t seen in a while.

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And, well. Then there’s the cons. There will be a lot of people there, people that I don’t know (and some that I don’t like). I’ll say awkward things, I’ll be awkward. I’ll be insecure about my awkwardness. I won’t know what to talk about, and if the topic lands on me I will be uncomfortable, and I’ll likely want to go home within minutes of getting there anyway.

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I’m all about saving money too…so if I don’t go, then I’ll save money on a babysitter and a costume. And I’ll probably get called lame…a lot.

But I’m good with being lame.

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Much Share, Very Wow.

I did a lot of stuff today, and it’s only 3pm. I did so many stuffs today that I think I deserve a nap (though I likely won’t get one).

I took Archer to a farm this morning, on a play date with my friend and her son. We petted the sheep and goats, went down the huge slide, and played in the sand.

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In the afternoon, Matt and I took Archer and both dogs to the dog park. Bane had never been to a dog park before, and Ivy has but not with us. I’ve been hesitant because the idea seemed intimating…two dogs and one toddler to a dog park where other dogs are? What if the other dogs aren’t good with kids? What if there’s an aggressive dog or a dog fight? So, I kept putting it off…preferring to go to take our walks along rarely used trails and street sidewalks, with leashes.

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But they were both awesome, they loved it and came back when we called them. Archer had fun too, throwing balls for the dogs and running around with reckless abandon. Keeping an eye on Archer wasn’t as challenging as I thought. He knows not to approach strange dogs without asking their owners. Naturally, we’re still super careful and watchful, keeping very near him at all times…but it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. In fact, it was awesome. We’ll definitely be back.

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Of all the things I did today, writing hasn’t yet been one of them. I’m beginning to feel like a cliché. I’m a writer that doesn’t write? Right now, anyway…or I haven’t been, anyway. Hopefully that will change…tonight.

In the mean time, I did stuff and I felt like sharing what that stuff was. Tada!

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Outlines & Outtakes

Do you know whats incredibly frustrating? When you are literally almost, nearly finished writing a book and are completely stuck on actually finishing it. I believe they call it “writer’s block”, and I have a very bad case of it right now.

It’s like this…I can see the ending in my mind. I know what’s going to happen…but every single time I sit down to actually write, I freeze. My mind whirls and pops with all the ideas and voices, but my limbs remain still. My fingers twitch with anticipation and eagerness, but aside from the twitch…the words won’t spill out from my brain through my fingers to the computer screen.

Maybe it’s the distractions…oh, I have plenty of those. Little voices and furry faces that interrupt with demands for food, affection and attention. Which they all need immediately the moment my ass lands in front of the computer.

Maybe it’s the fact that I am mentally psyching myself out. I’m so close to the ending…so close…and yet…so very far.

Maybe it’s because NaNoWriMo is around the corner, and I keep thinking about how I need a new plot for that. You can’t use a work in progress that’s already halfway done.

I’ve been reading tips, things other authors suggest when faced with writer’s block. Sit down and write. It doesn’t matter what you write, so long as you write…every day.

I’ve been doing that, I’ve been writing every single day. I’ve either been firing out blog posts or writing in my paper journal. Aside from that, I’m stuck. Unable to finish my current manuscript thanks to this massive writer’s block that I can’t seem to beat down.

I’m hoping NaNoWriMo will give me the mojo I need to overcome this writer’s block, but I’m also hoping it won’t take that long. I’m hoping I can at least fire out a few more chapters of my current manuscript before I take a break for NaNoWriMo.

In the mean time, here is a picture of my face:

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Also, a random thought…why do people harp on other people for taking selfies? I never used to like the way I looked. In high school, I downright hated my appearance. As I’ve aged, I’ve found myself appreciating my own beauty…both inner and outer. I don’t think that’s conceded at all, I think it’s remarkable and refreshing to go from hiding behind multiple layers and denying myself any postive comments about my looks, to embracing the body I’ve been given and feeling good about myself.

So, next time you make a joke about a “selfie addict”, remember…self love is good and feeling good about ones own appearance is a good thing. If posting pictures of yourself is not your style, well…so be it. Just don’t make jokes at someone else’s expense and make them feel bad for it, or I’ll have to bust out my preaching skills.

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Nature

This morning, I desperately wanted to go for a walk with the dogs and Archer. Naturally, taking two large breed dogs and a toddler out on a walk solo isn’t exactly most people’s idea of fun. Especially if one (or more) of the dogs has to go nuts every time they see a small breed dog, and especially if the toddler loves to run away at top speed…towards oncoming traffic or cliffs that overhang rivers.

Luckily, Matt had the day off…meaning my walk plans could actually happen and could actually be enjoyable!

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I completely forgot it was the middle of October, the weather was so sunny and warm. It barely felt like autumn at all.

We watched for fish in the creek and ran about in the wooded area. Archer got tired pretty quick, so it wasn’t as long as I would have liked…but still. It’s a chance to get out of the house and exercise…I desperately needed it.

It will get easier, dog walking…when Archer cooperates a little better. He’s beginning to now, which is awesome. But the time will one day come when I won’t have to chase him away from roads and cliffs, when he sticks to my side and doesn’t try and make a run for a total stranger.

I suppose shortly after that happens, I will likely encounter a new challenge…kids that simply don’t want to go out for a walk.
The grass is always greener, I suppose…

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