Category Archives: heaviness

Harder to Breathe

Today has been an…interesting day. I emphasized the word “interesting”, because I mean it’s difficult but I somehow feel…less…to confess that. But…it is difficult. Very difficult. I have been trying to keep myself busy and distracted…but the thoughts seep in … Continue reading

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Depression Tells You

I am often at war with my own thoughts. I know that sounds silly, and I suppose, to those who don’t suffer from mental illness, that it is funny. How could you be at war with your own thoughts? Just … Continue reading

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Rising Above

It seems like each day, I face a torrent of different challenges and emotions. Each challenge envokes a different emotion from me. I could choose to wilt under the pressure, to bury my head in the sand and “give up” … Continue reading

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Exhale

Parenting can be…a challenge. Contrary to what they (the media, society, your Facebook friends) say…it’s not all sunshine and rainbows. Sometimes, it downright sucks and is so bloody difficult that you can’t help but want to rip all your hair … Continue reading

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When It’s Quiet

It’s a strange thing, feeling this divided. Split in two…incomplete. For the most part, I can shuffle through my daily tasks and to-do list. It’s the quiet moments that it catches me, that feeling of being divided. Almost like feeling … Continue reading

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Hollow

Matt left for Regina at 3am. I woke up to the sound of an engine in the driveway. I shook Matt awake, knowing his ride was here. I saw him off, thankful I’d actually woken up in time to do … Continue reading

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Reservations About Solo Parenting

There are two days until Matt leaves for a month. I can’t express how much I’m going to miss his company, his presence in the house we share. I can’t express how much I am going to miss having his … Continue reading

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