Every time I hear this song, it makes me want to smile and cry at the same time.
The last year has been a struggle; that’s for sure. With Matt in school full time, working part time and me staying at home with our son while accepting disability because that’s all I can do…it’s been hard. I don’t enjoy being on disability, but in order for us to have the bare minimum to live, I have no choice. I can’t physically do any jobs that are available to me with the experience I have. Even then, I’m overlooked often because of the large holes in my resume, and the “track record” I have for jobs. Three months, tops, because I can’t physically do any job I’ve landed. It’s ended up with me in bed crying tears of frustration because it shouldn’t be so hard to work a hostessing job. But it is, at least for me.
So, it’s been hard, but we’re doing it. Even if some months seem harder than others, we always manage to pull our heads up above water and float. Those months, we do tend to fight more. What couple doesn’t? When you’re stressed, your first subconscious response is to take it out on those close to you.
The other night, we stayed up late talking….watching the storm and just holding each other. We needed it. We needed to take that time and not stress about everything outside of our control. We needed to remember that the sweetest things in life are free, and worth fighting for.